I've became worse

Hmmmm... Just don't know how to describe. I'm feeling that I'm not who I used to be anymore. I used to be great, people look up to me, I never fails.I was a perfectionist. But now, in this competitive and unfamiliar environment, I just unable to adapt and keep on failing to do the anything perfectly. I'm happy here, but I lost the ability to perform my best in any task.

I've sit for organic chemistry & introduction to phytochemistry last week. It was my worst paper ever. In school I always got the highest mark in my entire batch for the chemistry subject.In matriculation, even my tutorial teacher, Mr Mark noticed me in class because I have passion for this subject. But, I lost my focus on this exam. Unable to memorize the mechanism of actions that well. Other subjects seem to go well though.

Even the person I loved the most cheated on me for some other girl. My disappointment  just exceeded my feeling for him, then I dumped him and I don't regret it. The girl is a bitch somehow. Another case, my room mate won't be my room mate for next semester anymore. Now, you can obviously see my failures. Fail to retain what is mine.

Just now, I failed my motorcycle JPJ test. Just because of the stupid "titi". I'm too scared and feel a little shaky eventually unable to maintain my balance.There you go..RM45 wasted for test repeat!

The person I hate used to say, it is a pathetic thing to voice out your feeling in the blog.Nobody will feel sorry or listen.He said, they will just laugh at you. I didn't mind though. But I think that, he is the "biggest condemner" among all my blog followers. Can I say this. Can you please stop reading my blog? I don't welcome you here. Just treat you SALASIAL well. Don't ever interfere in my life, you cheater!

I don't care if people that I don't really know me read this. I just care about expressing my feelings.

Dear readers, just don't take anything in this blog personally.I just love to write anything that reaches my mind. This is me.....