Yeay! Examination for Semester 1,academic session of 2010/2011 is officially over !! Yuhuuu....
Overall, it's just so-so.. I think I did better for the last semester exams.
I'm praying that everything will be okay..
Tawau, here I come!
November 19, 2010
November 15, 2010
Sincerity
For me, doing good things to others are easy! But, doing it with sincerity is the hardest part of all. Sometimes, we "unintentionally" do good deeds because we can't say "no" when people asked for our helps. Although, at the back of our mind, we are just thinking other stuff such as counting the time as time passed by or even, how we wish we are spending time in our room.
Most of the time, we do good deeds to others just to repay their kindness. For those whom we have "bad history" with, tends to be out of our "helping list". We easily say no to this group of people. Yeah! Who want to help those who do not even care of doing what he should during our hard time? Definitely a no, no!
The one that we are closer with will be our top priority than someone that we just knew for seconds.(nah...months). Or even, someone we liked more than others will be our target to help.
Another example is, we help others, thinking that we will be benefited from it in the future. I think this is the worst of all. The benefits are not just in the form of material, but it can be also in the intangible form such as to be more acceptable by others, to have more friends or even to be treated more respectfully by others in the future. If we have the thinking of this at the back of our head. Watch out! We are actually in danger! That's why, I don't like to talk with someone that I respect, because I don't want to be nice to him just so that he will pay more attention to me! But also, I can't talk to him without respect. I'm not that kind of hypocrite!
All of the second thoughts of helping people will alter our real intention!! As a rsult, some of our good deeds won't even be rewarded with pahala. Can you believe that??!!
Mind control is a crucial things in life. I'm trying to control mine!
As a self reminder : Sometimes, we put money inside a donation box because we are ashamed to see all people around us are donating and we don't want to be the only one that did not. Don't bother doing it if you can't keep your intention straight!
Most of the time, we do good deeds to others just to repay their kindness. For those whom we have "bad history" with, tends to be out of our "helping list". We easily say no to this group of people. Yeah! Who want to help those who do not even care of doing what he should during our hard time? Definitely a no, no!
The one that we are closer with will be our top priority than someone that we just knew for seconds.(nah...months). Or even, someone we liked more than others will be our target to help.
Another example is, we help others, thinking that we will be benefited from it in the future. I think this is the worst of all. The benefits are not just in the form of material, but it can be also in the intangible form such as to be more acceptable by others, to have more friends or even to be treated more respectfully by others in the future. If we have the thinking of this at the back of our head. Watch out! We are actually in danger! That's why, I don't like to talk with someone that I respect, because I don't want to be nice to him just so that he will pay more attention to me! But also, I can't talk to him without respect. I'm not that kind of hypocrite!
All of the second thoughts of helping people will alter our real intention!! As a rsult, some of our good deeds won't even be rewarded with pahala. Can you believe that??!!
Mind control is a crucial things in life. I'm trying to control mine!
As a self reminder : Sometimes, we put money inside a donation box because we are ashamed to see all people around us are donating and we don't want to be the only one that did not. Don't bother doing it if you can't keep your intention straight!
Sedih
Esok ada exam 4 unit.. Tapi aku mau share something ni..
Petang tadi kawan seorang ada bagitahu sesuatu. Amat menyedihkan. Pastu dia kata, dia terjangkit dah dengan aku..
Apalagi, jadi mangsa kecurangan lelaki lah.. Dia pun terima nasib yang sama jugak. Aku pun terdiam, berfikir... Walaupun dia ketawa seumpama bergurau, tapi aku tahu dia sedih.
Lalu aku pun berkira-kira, sudah berapa ramai kawan yang break-up sejak masuk USM ni (BF bukan di USM). Sangat BANYAK. Adehh...hubungan jarak jauh memang takkan jadi punya.. Kalau ada yang jadi pun, sebab ada kecurangan yang tidak terbongkar. Lambat-laun bila dah terbongkar, habis porak peranda keluarga. Ehh,, hubungan.
"Sometimes, something is better left unsaid", mau apply proverb ni pun tak boleh, nanti dikata tak jujur pulak.
Couple bukannya hubungan sah. Tidak boleh kata kita memiliki lelaki tu. Hatinya lelaki tu pun belum tentu 50% kita miliki. Kalau kahwin pun, bukan milik kita sepenuhnya. Kan dia ada keluarga lagi & dia selama-lamanya tetap hamba Allah, milik Allah.
Berperasaan ni sesuatu yang payah. Akibatnya sangat bahaya. Lebih baik stay neutral untuk perkara-perkara yang berkaitan dengan perasaan ni..
Aku dah give-up. Cuci mata tengok orang handsome lagi best! Commitment is not necessary by just WATCHING!
Petang tadi kawan seorang ada bagitahu sesuatu. Amat menyedihkan. Pastu dia kata, dia terjangkit dah dengan aku..
Apalagi, jadi mangsa kecurangan lelaki lah.. Dia pun terima nasib yang sama jugak. Aku pun terdiam, berfikir... Walaupun dia ketawa seumpama bergurau, tapi aku tahu dia sedih.
Lalu aku pun berkira-kira, sudah berapa ramai kawan yang break-up sejak masuk USM ni (BF bukan di USM). Sangat BANYAK. Adehh...hubungan jarak jauh memang takkan jadi punya.. Kalau ada yang jadi pun, sebab ada kecurangan yang tidak terbongkar. Lambat-laun bila dah terbongkar, habis porak peranda keluarga. Ehh,, hubungan.
"Sometimes, something is better left unsaid", mau apply proverb ni pun tak boleh, nanti dikata tak jujur pulak.
Couple bukannya hubungan sah. Tidak boleh kata kita memiliki lelaki tu. Hatinya lelaki tu pun belum tentu 50% kita miliki. Kalau kahwin pun, bukan milik kita sepenuhnya. Kan dia ada keluarga lagi & dia selama-lamanya tetap hamba Allah, milik Allah.
Berperasaan ni sesuatu yang payah. Akibatnya sangat bahaya. Lebih baik stay neutral untuk perkara-perkara yang berkaitan dengan perasaan ni..
Aku dah give-up. Cuci mata tengok orang handsome lagi best! Commitment is not necessary by just WATCHING!
November 9, 2010
Primary School
My primary school mathematics teacher used to say to us that 80% of us will have hesitation to say hi when we meet her in the future. She said that it is because of the doubt that she may not recognize us.
When I heard that, I said I'm not in that statistic. I was convinced that my teacher will remember me because I'm UNIQUE and I always score in her subject.
Finally, the moment came by... I met her in a supermarket at the junk food and biscuits section. I just stand there. I watched her closely.. I want to say hi but the doubt came to me.. Will she remember who I am? I'm now wearing hijab, totally grown up, no longer wearing the weird spectacles. I'm even think that I'm now taller than she is. Will she remembers me?
When I heard that, I said I'm not in that statistic. I was convinced that my teacher will remember me because I'm UNIQUE and I always score in her subject.
Finally, the moment came by... I met her in a supermarket at the junk food and biscuits section. I just stand there. I watched her closely.. I want to say hi but the doubt came to me.. Will she remember who I am? I'm now wearing hijab, totally grown up, no longer wearing the weird spectacles. I'm even think that I'm now taller than she is. Will she remembers me?
Then, she went by.. I'm still there doing nothing, only my mind that keep on thinking about the appropriate things to do. But nothing was done. I reminisced the years when she taught me mathematics and her tears when we graduated from primary school.
I should not have did that to her. Even if she forgets, I should have shown my respect to her.
I should not have did that to her. Even if she forgets, I should have shown my respect to her.
November 6, 2010
Pepsi
I just drank 1 glass of pepsi in KFC sungai dua three hours ago..Then, I took a table of penadol actifast just an hour ago. I keep on imaging the video I've saw years ago, in which the combination of paracetamol and diet coke exploded when they are in contact with each other. Just wondering will they explode in my stomach?
Luckily my roomate told me that nothing will happen (by sms) as herself has tried it once. At least I got hours of gap before taking the tablet. But my roomate took both of them directly.
As a conclusion, nothing will happen. Hahaha
3 days to final exam. Definitely most of you will understand why this blog is SO OUTDATED these few days.Hmm.. Maybe weeks..
Luckily my roomate told me that nothing will happen (by sms) as herself has tried it once. At least I got hours of gap before taking the tablet. But my roomate took both of them directly.
As a conclusion, nothing will happen. Hahaha
3 days to final exam. Definitely most of you will understand why this blog is SO OUTDATED these few days.Hmm.. Maybe weeks..
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